OPINION: Am I being too hard on myself?
YESTERDAY, I threw a tantrum.
It was raw, it was ugly, it was undignified.
I was tired, I was cranky and I just-wanted-to-do-a-20-minute-cardio-workout-to-make-myself-feel-better-dammit.
After 10 minutes of dodging my one-year-old's attempts to climb my legs, my nearly four-year-old went and got an orange and a butter knife and declared he'd cut it up.
I looked at the ceiling, threw my hands in the air and cried: "I am trying to exercise! Can I please just have 20 minutes to do something for myself?!"
Then I kicked my desk.
Looking back, I am deeply mortified by my actions. What sort of example am I setting if I throw a tantrum? How can I expect my children to behave properly if I don't?
I feel like I failed them yesterday.
Do any other parents ever feel like this?
My family said I am being too hard on myself. But often at night when my kids are asleep I review the day: what could I have done better?
Obviously, not throwing a tantrum was at the top of my list last night.